Because I Love You, 

Romance

We met when I was 18 and you were 21 at a pub thanks to a senior of mine who is your friend.I didn’t like you at first. Because I thought you were weird.Your topic about being an alien if you were to born again just turns me off. Plus you spelled zoo as “J-O-O”
One day, I received a bouquet of flowers that was place on my table in my classroom. I wasn’t expecting it to be you. But when I open the card and saw “Would you go out with me on for a dinner this Saturday night? Love, HyunJoong” I was surprised.
I didn’t know what came over me. I just thought maybe it was just a “get-to-know-better-session” or something. Thus, I went to meet up. I still remembered you were wearing a Navy Green polo tee from Ralph Lauren with just normal straight cut jeans. You were holding a bouquet of pink roses in your hand. Then you said “Thanks for agreeing to come for this date. You look pretty today.”
I joked and said “So I only look good today?!” You immediately said “Aniyo. I didn’t mean it like this.” That’s teh first time I found you cute. For the whole dinner session, you were trying your best to make me entertained with your not-so-funny jokes; you even talked to me about what’s your dream. I got to know many things about you on that night. Knowing you are under DSP as trainee wanting to become a well known rock star, but you ended practicing dancing everyday instead of playing your favorite guitar.
You insisted sending me to my doorsteps after dinner. Before you left, you hold on to my arms and said “I don’t know how you feel about me. But I just wanna let you know that I really like you. Would you be my girlfriend?” You looked at me with those puppy eyes of yours. I nearly wanted to agree, but I didn’t. Because I don’t know about my feelings towards you yet. You told me you would wait for me no matter how long I take, because you love me.
After months of you trying to win my heart, I finally give in and we ended as a couple. My friends around were jealous of me. Having such a good looking boyfriend who protects me from everything. When I was in pain [Girl’s monthly problems], you would make hot chocolate drinks for me and let me lay down on your laps for hours. Even though you always make fun of me and calls me “Ya!” instead those normal couples who address each other as “Honey” or “Darling” But I just love your style. We were the most loving couple ever.
One day, you called me and told me to go down DSP’s building to meet you. You said you have a surprise for me. You introduced your new members to me. I still remembered seeing five pretty faces in front of me. That when I got to know Saengie Oppa, Jongie Oppa, Mal Oppa and Joon Oppa. I was happy to see you enjoying their company. The five of you practiced so hard together so that the group can become the NUMBER ONE world superstars. And because of all these practices, we could not see each other as often as before. But I didn’t mind it at all.
Finally, the day came. You stood on the stage with the rest of the members. Dancing to the song “Fighters” There were already a few high school girls cheering for the five of you below the stage. The members were crying after the first performance in the car park. You were trying to hold back your tears, because you are the leader of the group. But you could hold back any longer when I walked to you with your favorite comic. You hugged me so tight that I couldn’t even breath. That was the first time I saw you cried. I cried with you too. Not because it hurts me to see you cry, but I was happy for you. Your dream came true.
Soon after, the name “SS501” was all over Korea and Japan. Your fan base got bigger and bigger. The time I spent with you got lesser and lesser. From meeting up daily, to meeting up once or twice a week, to a month or two. It was even harder for me to see you when you were in Japan. After a few months, you finally came back. We were supposed to meet up for dinner, I waited for 3hours, and you finally showed up. But you left after 10mins. Because there were fans following you. So I ended up eat the dinner set meal by myself, when the tables around me were all couples.
There was once, when you invited me to the studio to watch you do photo shoots. You looked really hot. There were beautiful models around you. Their hands were all over you. But your eyes were either on me or the camera. This little action of yours just warms my heart again. However, all we did was eye contacts. Because when the shoot was finished, you were being pulled by your manager to your next event. Thus, I was left all alone again. I still remembered it was a rainy day. I walked under the rain for hours and ended being sick. You didn’t know about this, even now.
During your 22nd birthday, your company helped you organized a huge birthday party with all the celebrities and those big companies CEOs. The presents they gave you were Gucci bags, LV wallets, Prada’s shades and etc. You saw me, and you walked to me giving me a hug. I said I didn’t prepare a present for you, you didn’t mind it. I’m sorry I lied. I did prepare a present for you. But I didn’t have the face to take it out to show you. It was the necklace that you wanted when we walked pass a “$10 shop.” The necklace with a guitar pick as its pendant. On the pick itself it says “I Need You”
Most of our dates were short. Thanks to the paparazzi. The incident that ended up with this ending was when we were being caught holding hands on streets at night. We thought there was no one. But sadly the news was all over the newspapers in Korea. Many fans were angry. No forgetting your company and managers were angry too. I over heard what your boss scolded you by chance. That’s when I finally made the decision. The decision to leave you.
I sent a parcel to you after the incident. Because you were being grounded by your company. Inside the parcel there is the necklace that I always wanted to give you and a letter. I wrote…

Dear HyunJoong Oppa,
I’m sorry. When you are reading this, I’m already on way to a place where it’s far away from you. I’m sorry that I have to do this to you. I wanted to tell you personally, but I couldn’t. Because I know, when I see those eyes of yours, I won’t have the courage to make this decision. I choose to leave you. Not because I was sick of you, not because I changed my heart. But because I love you. That’s why I had to leave.
Being a singer is always your dream. You told me on our first date. I always remembered that. Thus, I didn’t want to be your burden. I didn’t wanna affect your career. I know you love to perform on stage with your brothers. I saw how happy you were on stage. And I know it is really important to you. Thus, I made this decision.
I will never forget the pink roses that you gave me. You told me pink rose means admiration. Thus you gave me 100 of them, to prove that you are 100% sure about me. All the times that we spent will be kept in my heart forever.
Don’t bother to look for me. Just put all your energy on your dreams. I will support you by watching every show that you attend and buy every album that you sing. Oppa, hope you like the gift that I wanted to give you since your 22nd birthday. I lied to you that I didn’t prepare it, because I was too ashamed with the gift that I gave. Just wanna let you know that, wherever you go, whatever you do, I’m always supporting at the other end of the world.
For the last time I say this to you…
“Oppa, Saranghae…”
Love,Linda.
Today, I became a fan of yours. I'm became a Triple S. Hiding inside millions of Triple S to support you secretly. I'm glad that you are doing well with the other 4 Oppas. SS501 fighting...

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