A pleasant odor floated around me. A mixture of vanilla and berries. I breath deeply, eyes closed, smiling. Of course, I knew that the smell came from. Hence my smile. I turned then, feeling a presence approaching quietly to me, and surrounded him my arms around the young man who had jumped on me. I guessed the smile on his lips. He returned to face me, face marked by joy. How not to smile? Grabbing my hand with his, he pulled me to the balcony and leaned against the barriers, look at the beautiful view it afforded us. His kids eyes scanned the horizon, entertained. The warm colors of sunset reflected in them. I couldn't take my eyes off him. If I could, I'll take him in my arms and kiss him tenderly ... But this was simply impossible. It was a wild dream of many.
- Kiseop?
I raised my eyes that I had managed to redirect elsewhere and returned to him. His gaze still planted to the horizon, he ran his hand through his thick hair, took a deep breath, and began to scream as loud as he could, eventually creating echoes in the streets. He then turned his eyes toward me, smiled and laughed before taking my hand. I laugh with him. He was incredible, without embarrassment. Especially, he spoke. What was my opposite. I kept all my feelings deep within me. Some manifest themselves later, the others remained hidden ... Like my feelings for him. It's been a year now I had realized what I felt. I was so hard to admit it of course. A person with whom I shared so many things. My behavior had changed so. I tried to stay as near, as open with him but it was so hard. All I wanted was to confess everything. Day after day I suffered more. To be near him and having to control my feelings, my actions. Not be able to do what I wanted. And besides that, in recent weeks, he had to sleep in my bed with me. The nights seemed so long. Although I was happy to be at his side, I always had to restrain myself. When he huddled in my arms, when he looked me in the night without saying anything, when I felt his little body against me, when his face was only an inch of me ... I was wondering, once again, if he shared my feelings. The way he was with me was unique. So many times I was tempted to ask him, but I couldn't do it. So many times I was tempted to kiss him, but I couldn't ...
- Oh, it's getting late ... Come take a shower!
I smiled and followed him in his haste. He provokes me? It is true that Kevin liked that one pampers. Especially me. Going into the bathroom, he undressed and went into the shower and asked me to join him. I took off my clothes in my turn and I execute. The hot water covered us, it was fun. He began to spread his soap on his body and then I helped him by placing my hands on his back and made lather. He laughed at my gesture, fearing tickling.
- Kevin, rest in peace. I said laughing.
- Yah, okay ~
I knew he refrained from laughing again. Then I attacked his hair. Able to touch his body as it was torture, because it wasn't mine. I resisted the temptation to lay my lips on his neck. I was so horny.
- Hi, all clean! Exclaimed he before grabbing a towel and tie it around his waist.
I did the same and took a second to dry his hair. He was so cute ...
- Kiseop ...
- Neh?
- I'd like to talk to you seriously ...
I looked at him, feeling a small lump in my stomach. I was suddenly afraid.
- Kiseop ... It's been a while now that I find you strange ... To me. I don't know what happens, but I'm not dreaming. It really bothers me you know. I like to know, what's happens?
I remained silent at his words. So he had noticed the change in my behavior.
- You know you can tell me anything. Everything. Nothing will change.
This last sentence froze my blood. As if waiting for something that could end our relationship. As if he knew. I looked at him. His eyes bright and full of confidence plunged into mine. His angelic face was just a few inches. It was time to confess. I had to stop hiding. I breathed, shutting his eyes and ajar lips slightly.
- I love you Kevin.
I expected then to a shocked look on his part but far from it. His hand took mine, and slowly he took me into the bedroom without a word. He lay on the bed as well. I did the same and he brought his little body against mine. Our eyes are always crossed. I felt his breath brushing against my face. I felt free. He knew that now. But I was confused by his reaction. His hands were raised against my chest, still silent, he looked at me. The desire to touch him, kiss him, was still present. I wrapped my arms around his waist, am sticking to it, inhaling his scent, eyes closed.
- Why did did you not tell from the start?
- ... I was afraid of losing you.
- Why will have you lost me? I will never put an end to our valuable friendship.
- Yes ...
- I'm sorry .. Kiseop
He pressed me against him noticing a few more tears rolling down my face. I replied to his embrace. I have wanted you to be mine, kevin ... But, maybe one day, you'll be?...
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